Memories Long Gone

Wednesday afternoon, my brothers and sister and I drove up to Pennsylvania. My parents had gone the day before, as we all had to work, and my mom texted me probably every half hour to make sure some possessed trucker hadn’t hacked us up into pieces and buried us in a corn field (only kidding). But, besides a wrong turn, we made it there safely (and in record time!).

My grandpap’s viewing was Thursday. It was really hard in the beginning; my grandma walked in and took one look at the casket and then started sobbing. They really made him look good though. Near the end, he really looked awful, but I guess they put a lot of make-up on, or I really don’t know what they do, but he looked good. He wore a flannel shirt and blue jeans, because that’s what he was comfortable in and it would’ve just been weird if he were in a suit.

The funeral was the following day. Right before the funeral, my grandma got really hot and started to feel dizzy. We sat her down and I just couldn’t help but think the worst, that something was going to happen to her during his funeral. We gave her a candy bar and some soda, and that seemed to help so we came to the conclusion that her blood sugar was low.

I was really okay during the funeral, but then there was a military graveside service since my grandpap served in WWII, and I just kind of lost it there. It was pouring rain, and I just kept thinking about how I was never going to be able to see him again or talk to him. God, I’m tearing up right now. :(

One of my aunts is going to stay with my grandma for a couple weeks. She’s taking it really hard and it breaks my heart to see her like that, but they were married for 63 years. I can’t imagine losing someone I loved and cared for that deeply and having to live on without them.

Thanks to all of you who commented on my last post. I really appreciate it. <3


8 thoughts on “Memories Long Gone”

  1. I will still keep on praying for you and your family, I hope you are alright. All the best for you and your family. I pray that the grief goes away and you keep him in your hearts. Amen. I hope you can overcome this well! I pray that your grandma is okay, It must be really hard to lose someone like that, Anyway… I pray that everything goes well for the rest of the journey in the memories of your grandpap, Again, I am really sorry for all of this!

  2. I hope you and your family are still doing well! I’m glad your grandfather had a good funeral, and wow he served in the WWII? That’s amazing. I hope he rests in peace <3.

  3. Oh, my gosh. I am so sorry for your loss, truly. I know how terrible it is losing people you love. And now I’m really scared that I may soon be typing your words.

    I’m glad that your grandfather looked nice and comfortable; at the very least, maybe that will help you remember him as he used to be. I like to think of my grandfather as the person my parents tell stories about, and not as the person who has slowly been losing his mind for the entire time I’ve known him. And I guess, when I die, I’d like to be seen as I was most comfortable.

    Wow, I can only imagine how hard it is for your grandmother. 63 years is such a long time–so much life and stories and wow, I don’t think I could make it through something like that. But she sounds like a really incredible woman.

    You are being so brave and strong through all of this! I wish you the best, and while I know it will be hard, I also know that you will move on and that your grandfather is in peace now. You are an amazing person. :)


    Thank you for the kind words and for your support! My family is much more understanding and accepting now, which is very nice. I had an appointment with my doctor yesterday, and he’s a vegetarian too! He explained to my mother that I was very healthy, and that actually, the way I’m eating now is much healthier than I would be if I were eating a meat-based diet. So, all is well. :)

  4. Aww, Becca! I’m so sorry! It’s never easy to lose a love one! NEVER. I don’t care how many times they tell you time will heal, it really doesn’t only for a short period of time than you go back to thinking “Why?” and get mad all over again.

    But don’t be afraid in knowing that your Grandpap and Grandma won’t be together in person, but they will be together in spirit. It’s hard losing someone you love that for that long. :) . My Grandma and Grandpa were married for a long time too, she never remarried after he passed away. They passed away in the same month exactly 1 week apart but in different years.

    My prayers goes out to your family and you of course!

  5. Ha I just think the main point is that many T.V shows nowadays are overrated. It sucks when you want to watch something good but end up watching a whole bunch of acted drama -points at the Jersey Shore-

    It seems like everyone is talking about the new show, Food Network Star. It seems like it’s a good show to watch:D I’ll check it out soon!

    Whoo! Same here! All my friends go there tickets and I just got my ticket yesterday. Well at least I have the tickets now, I can’t wait to dress up as Voldemort. :love:
    I’m sorry to hear that your grandfather passed away. It’s hard to lose someone you were close to, I know many of us can relate. I think it was hard for all of you to let go of him, especially your grandmother. After all, they were married for 63 years.

    It’s like the ending to a book, you come to the end but the memories of that book still live on. I’m sure he was a great man. May he rest in peace.

  6. Condolences to you and your family. I know how hard it is to lose a family member. And it must be especially harder for your grandma, to lose someone she’d been with for over half a century. :( I hope your grandma will be able to go through this difficult times. It won’t be easy, I know, but with your and your family’s support, things shouldn’t look too bleak for her. My own maternal grandpa took it hard when my grandma died, he is never the same person ever again. I think a part of him inside died with her.
    Wow, your grandpa had served in the WWII eh? That itself deserves much respect.

    Take care of yourself. :)

  7. Thanks :3 I’m hoping it was better than the last…whew! xD

    I know I’ve watched Parent Trap, but I can’t remember watching it. Haha, I sound like a loon!But I always know I’ve done something, but I can’t remember doing it…

    Yeah, exactly! I look back on the year and it’s like, woah, I actually survived and it just whizzed by! Amazing stuff…have fun being a senior! I’m guessing you guys are going to get heaps more work and whatnot…haha!

    Wow, you cook?! I have to say, I make pretty good toast…;)

    I hope you’re somewhat better after his service, it must be really difficult to lose someone in your family and especially your grandma. I hope the pain eases for everyone.

    I hope he rests in peace, because he’s probably in a better place. <3

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