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I AM GOING TO FRANCE AND ITALY WITH MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

OH MY GOSH.

Becky was originally going to go on the trip, but she dropped out near the beginning because she realized she wouldn’t be able to pay the whole sume that it costs. Since there was an empty spot, I was talking to Madame about what they would do with that, and she said that she was going to try and find someone to fill the spot. My first thought was that Andrew could take it, but he’s going on a family vacation around the same time, so wasn’t available. I then immediately thought Becky.

For a while we weren’t sure if she was going to be able to do it. She needed her passport (we’re leaving in 36 days!!) and she would have to pay extra to have it expedited. She’d also have to raise her own spending money and pay some late fees for joining the trip; but other than that, the trip is completely free to her.

We just got the final say yesterday on whether she could go or not. She called me saying she got her passport (she originally had a doctor’s appointment, so she missed school) and that her parents were okay with it.

I’ve been blubbering with excitement ever since. I’ve always been pretty excited for the trip, but I’ve always had these little nagging worries in the back of my mind. I didn’t have any real close friends going, so I wasn’t exactly sure who I was going to hang out with specifically, and since I paid so much money to go, I wanted to have a good time. I also love to take pictures, tons and tons of pictures, and I like to take really silly and bizarre ones too, so that might be kind of awkward with the people that I’m hanging out with.

I don’t really know how else to describe them besides little petty worries about the trip, but now that Becky’s going, they’ve all just disappeared. I can’t believe I am going to Europe with her. I can’t freaking believe it. I’ve known her since I was in the second grade, we’ve been best friends since the sixth, and we are practically the same. We always think the same way about things, do quirky things the same; there’s pretty much no awkwardness. She’s pretty much everything you could ever want in a best friend. <3

It’s going to be so hard to focus on school now. I can’t wait til summer. I AM SO HAPPY!! :D

 

Small Silver Lining

It’s been a rough couple days.

I had a talk with my mom again about where I want to go to college and what I want to do, and that always puts me in a foul and depressed mood. She always implies that going into French is silly and that there’s nothing out there for it. She told me I needed a back-up, and I guess the simplest way to put it is that I feel helpless. If I don’t go into French, what do I go into? I realize that there aren’t tons and tons of jobs for it, and honestly I don’t really know what all specifically there is, but it’s the only thing that I really like that I could actually do something with. If I didn’t go into French, I’ve no idea what I would go into.

I always like to have a plan and to be prepared, so this whole not knowing what I want to do thing is just eating at me. Andrew’s all, “It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks in the end,” which is true and all, but they all have valid points.

School has been getting suckier and suckier. My grades are dropping. I don’t have motivation to do homework. I just want summer to get her so I can leave the country, at least for a little while.

I got a call back just a few minutes ago as I was typing this up from the manager at the pool that I had an interview for. Not surprisingly, I didn’t get the job. She said that my interview went great, but there is a lot of people coming back that worked last year, and other people had more experience, so they were chosen over me… Le sigh.

I’ll be able to clean houses with my mom this summer, and I have that babysitting job, so I’m still able to make some money, just not as much as I wanted. Plus, lifeguarding would’ve been really good experience and something I could’ve put on other job applications. Cleaning houses is such a crappy job, but it’s a job, nonetheless.

Amidst all this negativity, I’m going to Physics Day at Six Flags with my class at school, so it’s something to look forward to on Friday. I love blowing money on stupid games that I never win and the most delicious food ever. :) As cheesy as it is, I want Andrew to win me a stuffed animal.  ;)

Then after that on Friday, my friend Sidnie (who ironically enough got the lifeguarding job), is having a bonfire, so that will be pretty fun. It’s actually on my 101 list (though it’s still not finished… any suggestions?) which I’m slowly working on.

So here’s to things hopefully getting a little better really soon.